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Taking a Breather

Sun Jan 18, 2009, 10:00 PM
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Just in regards to the journal I replaced this with...

I exploded after all the constant disppointments recently. It's been one after the other for the past few months, and this one just hit me harder, because I've been through a lot of crap the past few weeks, only to have what I was waiting for, torn from me.

I'm not suicidal and I am still pretty much upset... Just not as much as before.


I have hidden my gallery and will be taking a small breather from art and possibily dA briefly, just until I can manage to get back into an art kick and feel positive about stuff again.

And thank you to everyone who commented or IMed me... You all did help a lot :heart::heart::heart:.


(Also, when I said 'gods' I was more using the term from my comic... I choose not to talk much about religion in public ^^;)

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I don't have much to say other then sorry, that sucks :( and you have my msn if you really need to vent to someone in private
:iconsailex:
I only wish you my condolensces and I hope everything will be better for you REAL Soon!

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"All your base.. are still belong to~

TD: *Leaps out* THE TANUKIS!

Soryu: *Smacks my face* You have no chance to survive make your time

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:iconeriq:
You should read THE SECRET my friend -
and -- remember - people do have busy lives ----
We - for instance - have been very busy searching for another house (moving back to Welcome Bay !)
and packing and having QQ over - balancing it with work and other commitments -

... in the mean time -- keep breathing - and focus on your next trip overseas --- keep the peace - bro --
:iconsuper-spy-vito:
D: I hope things improve for you in the near future...if you need anyone to vent on, I'll be around on SL as soon as they fix the login issues. I apologize I didn't say more...I'm very bad with words most of the time... :hug:

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Life is like hot chocolate. It tastes great, but sometimes you burn your mouth.
:iconryengu:
There's nothing really I can say that will help :(
Cept, perhaps, saying that I'd be there for you to talk to/rant to/vent to if you needed it O.o

Really do hope things get better, please hold out until something changes ._.

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Afterlife: Cuz you'll never have to admit you're wrong about believing in one :D
:icontaesospiritdragon:
Dang.. That's intense... I commend you though for being able to hold out this long, not many people can before they snap, that's a sign of a strong will, don't let all that negativity drag you down into a pit.

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They say the world a nasty place. You know what? SCREW THAT! I'm going to live the way I want to live.If anyone complains about my mistakes, and put me down, then they are incapable of forgiving or understanding individuality!
:iconorcamistress101:
Hey :hug: I'm sorry, hun. If I ever have to the insanely good luck to be online when you're online, talk to me. It seems we always miss each other. Something gives me the feeling you're online more often than I get to see you. I do love chatting with you. If you need someone to chat with/vent to/whatever it is you may need/want, well, you know who I am on AIM. :hug:

Things will look up. I'm sure of it. I'll keep you in my prayers to a God who can really help you, if you would like that..?

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Pro-life club:
pro-life
the club for all pro life people.
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"I'll take my freedom, my money, and my guns. You can keep the 'change'."
:iconecyor0:
Well, offering advice in this situation is usually a sure sign of someone with no survival skills ('specially if the person in question is a total stranger)... and that may still be true in my case... but if it's any help, this sort of thing can't last forever.

(Now, this is a different set of circumstances from yours, no question about that. But there are enough similarities for me to think I might be of some use.)

My dad had a similar level of stress when he got married - his mother disapproved, and in the end they moved to the other end of the North Island to stop her from destroying the marriage... not to mention there was this other woman who'd set her sights on him and was also out to wreck the marriage (and for all we know she still hasn't given up the ghost). And then my mum was diagnosed with fybromialgia (one of those lifetime conditions that isn't lethal, but it's very debilitating and incurable. Basically makes it impossible to do anything more strenuous than dusting windowsills: cooking dinner is pushing it, and hanging out washing is completely out of the question).

About 10 years ago, it was looking pretty bleak: my dad was being accused of incompetence at work (despite the fact that he really had two full-time jobs - the second being looking after his wife) we were low on money, and then our old toyota van finally got to the stage where it was spending more time in repairs than at home. We couldn't afford a new one, but we really needed transport (specially with the school being at the oppisite end of town). Also at this point my mum was at about the worst she'd ever been - she could barely walk to the gate and back without knocking herself out, and at one point she was hospitalized for a week.

And yet, things have worked out. The head of department that was giving my dad grief left, and another took his place (still quite irascible and difficult to work with, but still by far the best HoD out of the last four), someone came out of the blue and gave (yes, gave) us a new van, and my mum started to get better, and she's been steadily getting better and better ever since. My mum and dad were able to reach a level of reconciliation with his mother before she died, my dad's now self-employed (working more hours for less pay, but still less stressed than before) and we live in a house three times the size of our last one.

I'm not saying it'll all blow over, and I'm not saying it'll suddenly snap back to normal. I'm not even saying it'll happen quickly (the above is a syummary of the last 20 years). But hold in there. And keep that bus disappointed. Who you are comes out in what you create, and the Rings of Time series gave me the distinct impression that you've got a real streak of gentleness to you. (It also gave me the distinct impression you're a fan of Ecco the Dolphin, but that's neither here nor there...)

Well, I'm no Mrs Doubtfire, but hopefully that was some help. All the best.

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Dress in red, and the evil penguins shall never find you.
:iconchaotica-i:
I’m so sorry. I don’t really know what to say beyond that because I have been having a horrible time myself since November (my original reply was much longer, detailing my own series of horrendous events, but I figured that telling you my problems wouldn’t help you with yours)... I don’t think there is anything anyone could say to me to make me feel any better, so I suppose the same is true for you. Even though I don’t really know you that well, if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m always here to listen... although I’ll probably vent a little bit myself.
Hang in there, if there is anything I can do, please let me know.
Aelia
:icondragonhalf13570:
OMG, I know you don't know me, but I loved all of your works and I was wondering why you deleted everything. :( I'm sooo sorry, you seemed like such a happy fellow, I really don't know what to say, but I think I can relate to you in terms of feeling rejected, because I have felt extremely paranoid towards my firends thinking that they don't care when some really do. I've gotten stabbed in the back by someone who I thought was my friend, but was really just using me....etc. I also have felt under appreciated to a certain extent and occasionally have breakdowns, but overall get over it just as fast as it starts.

I'm sorry again to hear all of this tha tis happening. I hope your jerk of a sister will get arrested and for good, to know that she does such cruel things to your family.

I hope things get better, even for your cursed luck, there's got to be something out there. If there's not, move out and start over, get away form the real world for awhile, go on a long vacation. That's about all I can say considering your problems if they persist. You should be old enough to take control in your life and not let people treat you like this. That's what I had to do once, and that's al anyone can do until things get better.

I wish you all the luck in the world. I'm available for you to talk with me if that is necessary. I know I'm a stranger, but having watched you from a distance, you seem like a great person, don't let anything tell you otherwise. Please don't kil, yourself, I had suicidal thoughts once, but I knew that its not going to make things get any better and you would basically be giving up. So many people appreciate and care for you on here, so don't go :(

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