I'm taking a break from the internet mostly, in order to get things in my life in order.

I currently hate myself and a lot of people seem to hate me in return, so I'm taking a bit of a breather in order to get stuff in my life in order.

So until then, take care all.

Okay, so I've finally finished page 10 as you've seen on my gallery.
I've sketched up page 11 and 12 and I am starting on 13. Starting from Page 11, I will be lining the comics on PC, so hopefully this will make them look cleaner... in theory.

I'm planning to build a level of 5 pages again, so it will be a while before 11, but hopefully a level will help me keep going. It's worked in the past before!

I am also hoping to get to my first cliffhanger in the story, at page 25, before the Christmas break. So here's hoping I can keep this motivation flowing, as I've been very unmotivated as of late.

To Do List: (besides comic)

* Contest prize for ~thunderess
* Art Trade
* Gift art for =SkyebobPiepants
* Art trade with ~angelorca53

Peace for now.

So yeah... probably noticed lately that there has not been a lot of activity from me on dA lately...
I have pictures to comment on and stuff to do and post. Hell, I've been trying to type up this journal for the past 2 weeks with no luck.

No, I haven't died.
No, I haven't given up on the comic.
And no, I haven't lost touch of the real world and dedicated my life to WoW. (Though I have been playing it a lot, so I'll address that later)


Basically, lately, I've been combating a long bout of depression from a number of things, and it's been going on for a while, and that's been impacting on any want to do anything artwise or such.

I have page 10 in mid-colour and page 11 ruled up. I have a trade block coloured and still playing with concepts for the contest prize pic. But I find myself lacking the will and desire to continue drawing. It's not that I don't want to... I have all these ideas in my head and want to do more, but I find myself finding it harder to be able to sit down and enjoy it.

Basically, in the past few weeks, I've been playing World of Warcraft a lot, and I know this as a sign. I play video games a lot more than usual when I feel I just want to get away from life and escape to somewhere else where real life doesn't apply. And since WoW is lately the game I've been playing, it makes sense really. So yeah, despite me playing WoW, I'm not abandoning my gallery or stories... It's just me trying to escape for whatever reason.


I'm not sure where to begin with this depression to be honest. I kinda think its come from a number of things that have happened lately...
* My job. Last year I could do my job and also work on the comic between calls. Lately, things have gotten so chaotic I can't even breathe at work. I go to work exhausted and come home exhausted, and by the time it's the weekend, I just want to veg out. So, art just seems to get no time anymore...
* Friends. I used to see friends of mine all the time online and we'd talk and hang out in the evenings/weekends... Now, I see pretty much no-one. There's a select few I do see on a regular basis, but almost everyone else is... well, vanished off the face of the Earth. And it's not just IMs either... I don't hear from them on dA, Facebook or anything anymore. And some of my friends lately are constantly upset, and that upsets me as well...
* Money issues. I think we all have these lately... I almost had my credit card paid off, then I needed to get my bike serviced, cat to the vet, bike insurance and more... Now I'm owing money again... *sigh*
* Feeling (more or less) Worthless. Friends are upset and in trouble and I can't help. I look at what I want to do, but can't bring myself to do it. Fighting with people I know. Making people feel miserable... It makes me feel all the more worse at my end as well. I've been feeling a lot lately that, well... No matter what I do, I turn people against me and hurt them more than anything else.
* Being Sick. Winter sucks. The flu sucks. End of story...


Looking at my gallery, I see my pages to Shattered Shadows and how few I've done... this makes me feel upset, because I have these ideas and want to share them. I want to do more, but in these months, I've only managed a total of 9 pages, and I find that very, very weak. It frustrates me to no end and demotivates me further...

Ehh, I really just do not know what to do. :/
I feel miserable and very little I try to do helps. This journal is more of a rant to get it out, and maybe if anyone's got advice on how to break out of this rut I'm in, to of ask it...

Either way, thanks if you took the time to read this.
Means a lot. <3

Back from my holiday in Australia.

Was a lot of fun and met up with none other than here at dA!

We did a lot of cool stuff like;

Warner Bros. Movieworld
Sea World
Dream World
Infinity
Hard Rock Cafe
Sky Diving (I did at least)
and the movies.


=SkyebobPiepants was awesome to hang about with. We had a lot of fun together, as well as with my uncle who showed up for a few days.

Movieworld highlights included a log flume that drops you twice. The main one to the front like usual, but also a drop backwards at the start! There was the Superman: The Escape rollercoaster and the Scooby Doo Spooky Coaster also good fun!
There was also a fun street brawl in the middle of the day in the main street as the Scarecrow attempted to take over the park and Batman raced into put a stop to the Scrarecrow and his minions plan.
Though the show stealer was seriously the Stunt Drivers show. Stunt Drivers really know how to work their cars well... So many chances at accidents there in the show, yet never once hitting each other. A fantastic show to see!

Sea World had some fun things as well. Imagine is a fun dolphin show, and (in my opinion) what Believe should have been. Educational, interactive and fun to watch... I have a video of it on my YouTube page... [link] The two parts can be viewed there.
There was a guessing game as well, where the guess your age and weight. Both Skye and I did this, and while they were close for me (But I still won), they actually asked Skye what prize she wanted, as they had no idea. Their guess was miles off in the end.
The park was a lot of fun, with much more realistic looking environments and exhibits than most marine parks I've been to. It was well worth the visit! (That's also why we went back!)
Also, I proposed to Skye at Sea World...
At least that's what my uncle and Skye said that my (jokingly) comment about how wives were supposed to act. So now I'm engaged and didn't even know it... o.o

Dreamworld is a thrill seekers paradise. The Big Six Thrill Rides there are the Claw, the Cyclone, the Wipeout, the Tower of Terror, The Moto-Coaster and the Giant Drop. The Giant Drop is actually the world's largest free fall ride I believe!
There were some nasty parts, like a lot of the rides we were going on breaking downa nd having to wait a long time in the queues. And then someone spewing on the Wipeout before we got on it.
And Tiger Isaland... love those tigers there! Expect some photos sometime soon.

Infinity is so hard to describe. Best way to describe it is the legal way to get high. Laser tricky, mirrors, traps and fear enducing black corridors all rolled into a maze is the only way I can describe it.

Dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe was only worth a mention because of a funny event when Skye texted her mother to let her know what was going on.
Skye: I'm ina bikey bar with lots of nice people drinking hard liqour
Mum: You had better be lying
We were all in stiches.

And yes, it's true. Skye talked me into sky diving. She surprised me with it, and yes, I protested a lot about it. But I got up there and did it. And it was a total ball! I hope to go skydiving again in the future, as it was such a thrill!

As for movies, we saw two of them.
Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaur was awesome and I highly recommend it. FAR better than the second movie which found totally lackluster. Had some really good moments and jokes that worked well.
And then we saw Alien Robot Wars: guest starring Several Tans-- I mean, Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen. Popcorn movie at best. It feels like Bay added explosion here, explosion there, sex appeal here, explosion over there and -- Hey! You know what would make this great? Let's add a PLOT! Seriously, the movie is bad.
Transformers that transform into humans (this scene reminds me so much of the movie Species its nuts) and stupid dopey comic relief characters...
Avoid it. I beg you.

Overall, it was a great holiday and I enjoyed it. Though there was one sad thing at the end... when my plane landed in NZ, we were delayed at landing. Paramedics had to get on the flight to help a baby a mother had accidently split boiling hot coffee on. Poor thing... We don't know what happened as we were ushered off after they got on board.


At any rate, that's over and tomorrow's back to work and back to reality.
I'm feeling creative, so I think I'll work to get all my art stuff back under control, starting with trades and contest prizes.


Oh yeah, and photos will come soon.